recent hiatus!

Well I have a REALLY good reason why I have been slacking on my blog since Dan left. In case you live under a rock, you already know that Dan and I are expecting! It's all I wanted to talk about for the last 13 weeks, but had to keep it a secret until we announced to our family. We chose to announce on Mother's Day. We thought it was a perfect time!


I found out we were pregnant 3 days after Dan left for his deployment. It was VERY hard that first month. I never had morning sickness (still haven't to this day) but I was SO tired all the time. I lost a lot of weight the first month Dan was gone, and actually have managed to keep it off since. So it's been nice, but no worries, I will gain it all back with this baby. 


I had my first ultrasound at 8 weeks, 3 days. My baby looked like a blob, but I still had that motherly feeling when I saw the baby. It all became real at that point. 


I never felt pregnant and still really don't. I'm not showing that much yet, but it's coming! My next ultrasound will be when Dan gets home. I will be 21 weeks pregnant when he gets back, so I'm hoping to schedule it for pretty much the day after he gets back! I got special permission from my doctor to wait until he gets home even though they recommend getting it done at 18-20 weeks. So I was lucky I could wait a week or 2 longer! We are excited to find out what we are having and I am so excited for Dan to finally meet our baby. 


Speaking of that, it's been hard without him. It's a lot harder than one might think. Yes, I am getting along fine without him, but he's missing all of this. I'm sure he's glad he's missing the hormone craziness and the all the exhaustion, but he's also missing my doctor's appointments and my growing/changing belly/body. I have this special connection to the baby, even now, that Dan doesn't have because he can't talk to my belly or anything.   But I am so thankful that he will be here for the delivery and the most important ultrasound!


There will be MUCH more to come on this topic. Until next time! :)

It's getting better all the time.

Good Song.. also so true about Dan being gone! I want to say that time has just flown, but really it hasn't. Maybe in the last week it has, but before that I felt like he was gone for ages when it was only a week! :(

Things are getting a lot better here. I am beginning to deal with being alone and how to cook and fend for myself and only myself. I'm trying to get back into a work out routine. That will make me feel like myself again. I went to the gym yesterday and today so I'm feeling pretty good!

I get to talk to Dan pretty regularly. As I said before, I talk to him for about 45 minutes before I go to work and then when I get off work for about 30 minutes. Then at night, I email me about the goings-on while I am here. If he is not busy, he can email me back and he usually does!

It's been kind of nice at night... usually I'm dead tired around 10 o'clock but when he was here I tried to not fall asleep because he called me an old woman. But now that he is not here, I am off to bed between 10 and 1030 every night! It's very nice considering I get up early to talk to him anyway.

I'm trying to stay busy. I am making a t-shirt quilt. It's coming along pretty nicely. I'll post pictures when it is finished. My parents are coming to visit this weekend!!! Boy am I glad to see them! Then I'll be pretty busy for April. We have my friend Rachel's wedding shower and Easter which seems far but I'm sure will sneak up on me. Then in May I am going home for the Flying Pig Marathon and going up to Virginia for Rachel's wedding!!! Pretty soon it will be June and he will be home in a month!

Here's to staying positive! Until next time....

Over a week!

Well it's been over a week since Dan left. The first couple of days were good. I felt good and I was very positive.. Well that turned for the worse on Friday. I woke up and had a horrible morning. You know, everything that could go wrong, did! Sucky.

Last Friday, I finally realized that Dan was not coming home for a while and I just felt so very alone. I was depressed ALLLL weekend. I didn't eat and didn't want to do anything. You know those depression commercials.. "when you don't enjoy the things you used to enjoy"... yeah that was me. The weekends are so welcome, but that first weekend was lonely. There was nothing for me to do except think about him...

But... I finally came around! I feel SOOO much better.. I am able to eat again and I feel way more like myself that I did this weekend. So I'm glad I am feeling better and I have this positive outlook that will hopefully get me through the next few months.

I have a few things planned this weekend.. The Cherry Blossom Festival started today, so I will be going to that this weekend. I am also making a t-shirt quilt, which will probably take up most of my time. Then there is always painting the trim of the house.. which I will put off until last because I do NOT want to do that. I hope to stay busy and not think about it for a while!

Until next time...    :)

Day 1

Well it's the day after Dan left. Tuesday was pretty rough. I was all emotional basically the whole day. We got to the airport at 1045 (flight at 1330) to check his bags. The man at the counter was nice enough to give me a Gate Pass so I could go through security with him to his gate! :) He said they usually don't let others through be I guess maybe he felt bad for me. LOL.

We ate lunch in the airport and then just hung out at the gate. Then came the hard part. His flight was boarding and he had to go, so of course I was bawling my eyes out and about to go in the corner and lie in the fetal position. But when we went up to check in, the lady scanning the tickets said he could spend a few more minutes with me and they upgraded him to first class! YAY!!! For him and me! I am grateful for the extra minutes, but it was so hard saying goodbye. But I did and then I got myself home (barely) and then was a train wreck the rest of the night. But I survived!

Today
Today was MUCH MUCH MUCH better than yesterday. Sure I still really miss him (and I will everyday) but I just need to get on with it. If I spend my days thinking about him and nothing else, these 4 months are going to move extremely sloooowww.

I talked with Dan first thing this morning. His flight had to make 2 stops until it reached it's final destination. He sent me a google chat at 630 this AM and I was so lucky to get it! It literally made me smile ALLL day. Becuase I knew he was safe and also because I got to talk to him before work! Being at work made it easier. It kept my mind off of things. THEN at lunch he google chatted me AGAIN! Boy was I lucky today! He was at his 2nd stop and I talked with him until he had to board the plane! That made my day pretty good!

I haven't heard from him since, but Raquel (the person he is replacing) said his plane landed and he is safe! So I'm hoping to talk with him maybe tomorrow morning if he is not working. It's kinda hairy right now because I'm not sure when he will be available these first few days!

Just know he is safe and I will be updating all of my readers with information on his journey and my journey here! Until next time! :)

(sorry this was so long)

Saying Goodbye

So this will be pretty short and to the point.

The time has come. Dan is finally leaving.... I've been putting off the inevitable for a while but it's time to face it. I have to drop him off at the airport on Tuesday. His flight is at 1 or 1:30. I am trying to spend these last few days with him and not doing much else.

He is working on finishing our new bed he is building so when he finally does, I'll post some pictures on here. I tell ya, I'm not sure how I will manage to do things around here without him. He's so handy!! But I've got to learn!

I am doing okay right now, but know I will most likely be a hot, hot mess on Tuesday. I will update again after he leaves and hopefully periodically while he is gone so you guys can keep up with what he is doing!

Until next time... 

Happenings.

Well hello readers. It's been a while since my last update.. which seemed like last week until I looked at the date.

I should start with the most important news.. I finally started my new job!!! Right now, I am on my second week. I am just observing right now since it is much different than what I was used to at the SNF. Paperwork is different and procedure is different. But I am catching on and excited to hopefully get to take over the schedule this week! I am a very mixed caseload, which is good! The main reason why I took this job (besides being close to home) was that I wanted to improve my clinical skills in other areas and it just wasn't happening at the SNF. So far, I will have cognition, voice, TBI, and of course swallowing!

My birthday has come and gone. One year older! I was at orientation for the new job, but again, glad to be close to home! :). Dan got me the best gift by far! He finally gave in and bought me a Keurig!! It's pretty much amazing! It takes like 10 seconds to brew coffee. And it's the perfect amount! He also got me the sandals I was wanting for a year now! He's the BEST! My parents/sister also gave me the best gift too! A plane ticket home to see my nephews for their first birthday! LOVE IT!!! A big group of friends went out to dinner at Carrabbas. It was very good and I enjoyed spending time with great friends!

This week Dan is TDY in Destin, FL! BOOOO! At least the weather won't be much better there than it is here. I can't be that jealous. But he is staying in a condo on the beach. But again, whats a beach with 50 degree weather? I'm kinda mad at the air force because they keep sending him TDY on these trips before his deployment! Do they not understand that he will be leaving ME for 4 months and I need to see him now!?!?! Oh well. At least now I have to get used to caring for myself before he leaves cold turkey.

Well that is all it takes for an update in our life. It's pretty boring... :) but i love it! Until next time!

Fresh Start

Happy New Year!!!

I thought this year was going to be the same as the others. I would make a few new years resolutions and then break them all by the 2nd week. I would have the same job and do the same things as I do now, day in and day out. I would count down to the exact hour (if I could) that I could leave this place.

But turns out this year is different!!!!! I will be making new years resolutions this year. However, they will be different. I was vowing to make my self a "healthier me." Yes I am going to work out, change my diet, brush my teeth before bed, floss, and take better care of myself. But i didn't set a time frame. It will be ongoing and not as hardcore as usual. This time (as i say every year) will be different!

I also can finally say that I got a new job! WOOO HOO!! I applied for a position at the Houston Hospital ( about 5 mins from our house) back in November. They waited a while to call me (about 3 weeks) but they finally did! I didn't even think twice about it! I have been wanting to get a job closer to home that way I can meet Dan for lunch or come home. (It's the little things). I will be the main Outpatient SLP with the hospital. I start on Jan 31st.

I hope this is the start I was looking for. I have been so....lost... the past few months. Just stuck in the same old rut doing the same old things. But I didn't have a way out so I was just sucking it up and going day-by-day to make it. But now I'm looking forward to something new and different. Something for me!

I will keep you posted on the new job! Until next time! :)